Finally the owl has arrived....
I tell you one thing it is hard to customise this bloody thing...lol
Well a new home for blogging. I am going to shut down my yahoo360, I don't really have the time to cross blog, so much has happened in the last couple of weeks it isn't funny.
Think of the biggest scariest roller coaster,and that is what I have been on. Well it sure feels bloody like it. As you might tell I am a little pissed. This is mainly due to my loss of faith in all things to do with the family law court in Australia and lawyers and bloody over paid ego-driven psychologists. On Thursday pass, Peter finally signed the parenting agreement with his ex. I have finally calmed down, but let's say I have no high regards for the so-called legal systems and so-called systems they have in place to protect and allow children to have a somewhat happy carefree childhood. Peter signed the agreement for Ethan to go back and live with his mother and we see him every second weekend (from Friday afternoon to Monday morning) and two full weeks during the year. It came down to a psychologist report that cost a lot of money saying that a child so young should be with it's mother (no matter if the mother is a psychopathic liar, and uses her child for her own self needs of control. We have been hung out to dry by the school and this so-called psychologist, had no regard to the mother's ability to control her behaviours or even to take responsibility were addressed. It came down to having some stranger watch you for some 10 minutes after the child had been with the mother all week, to determine that Peter was not good enough.
You know what the hardest thing was....watching someone get away with lying, and you not being believed, or your word doubted. My religion, sexuality, mental health of my child, have been aired to the courts.
So now we don't have a near six-year old running around the house every other week, it broke my heart to see Peter go through this, and it broke my beliefs in the law and psychological system. All we can do is now wait and see what happens with Ethan and his mum, and if it will happen again. Oh and the other thing we can do is now start paying the bill off, because at the end of the day if we wanted to fight her in court, we were looking at close to $20000, and of now it is around $11000, and we just couldn't do anymore. I now understand why especially fathers, just give in and allow the mothers to have the children the costs involved emotional, physically, financially and even morally is great to the point of near breaking.
With one in three marriages in Australia ending in divorce, no wonder the children are ending up screwed in the head. When will adults start acting like adults, take responsibility for their actions and stop using their children.
Sigh this is reality, harsh, hurtful.
I had to fight within myself, my own soul, my own conscious. This was not something I could jump into and fight tooth and nail. In other words it was not my fight, yet I saw the man I love and adore, crumble last week when the realisation of what all of this was. No words can describe the pain I felt from him, he was betrayed by the system and the guilt he felt about having to make the choice, and now he is dealing with.
For me, I have a fire within that is smouldering, I have gone out into the bush and opened every pore in my body and let it pore back into the earth, to be used more useful, yet it still burns within. The injustice of it all, is the hardest to bare, so I will write and write to come to terms of my loss of faith in society and it's laws. I will stay in my own realms of beliefs and keep fighting the fights for the environment and that, but no more will society deem what is acceptable in how to live my life when it is driven by ego, power and money.
At the end of the day, all I could say to Peter was that we have lessons in life to learn, and if we don't learn them they will be there in our next lifetime. This is a lesson, what did I learn from it, at the end of the day what cost is it all, do you lower yourself to other's levels; or do you take it from it knowing that this woman is now on notice, and that if anything goes wrong, you will be able to fight the next time a little more wiser.
Stay true and well
Keltia
PS sorry I had to get this all out before, I started on other stuff.
